I need a doctor...

I'm about to lose my mind...
So, it's almost 2 a.m. and I can't sleep. Which sucks, because my daughter will be up in, probably 5 hours, lol. But I've just got so much on my mind, that I can't sleep till I vent. My daughters father and I separated when she was a couple weeks old, moved back in with each other, (stayed separated though) I just didn't have anywhere to go.. Anyway, about a year and 2 months ago, (she was probably 8 months old at the time) my daughter and I moved out and moved back in with my parents till I could get on my feet and find a house. For the longest time, he would come and spend time with Lorelai on Wednesday and Thursday which were his days off and the days that I would let him come see her. Then I started letting him take her places, then when she was around 1 year old, I started letting him keep her from Wednesday afternoon till Friday afternoon. We eventually filed for divorce and finalized it. All during this time, he continued to come get her every single week and would pay me child support every month... About 3 months ago, he started dating a new girl, and the visits went from being two nights a week, to one night a week, then 2 nights one week, none the next and 2 the next. The first time he didn't come get her on his days, was also the week that his Child Support was due, go figure. Then he came and got her the following Monday, kept her till Wednesday, and told me that he would have the child support in the bank (we still share an account) on the next day. I called about the child support, and he told me to go take out half of it, and he'd give me the other half (for july, mind you) the following week, and then on the 3rd week in August, he'd give me the full payment for August, to catch himself up.. So I went along with it, got out the money and got things for her that we needed :)) (I have a boyfriend who works and buys most of the things she needs, but the child support really does help out...) Anyway, he didn't come get her the following week, and then the third week, which is this week, and the week he should have gotten her in his new "pattern" that he started, he calls me at 11 this morning, and tells me to have her ready at 9 p.m. so he can pick her up. My mom wanted to take my sister and I out for dinner tonight, so I got her ready and we went.. Then she surprised us by taking us shopping for new clothes (which I needed desperately). I didn't give it a second thought, because I've thought about it all day, and I pretty much knew that he wouldn't come get her anyway. So, I get home at 9:05 and he'd already called, almost an hour before hand. I called him back once, and then called back a second time and his girlfriend answered and told me that he had a migraine and couldn't come get her. Apparently she forgets, I dated him and was married to him for many years, and I know when he's lying about being sick, and the first sign is always him making someone else answer his phone calls. I know a liar when I talk to one, no matter how good of a liar you are, I always know.. To me, it's funny that the visitation slowed down whenever he got with this new girl. I'm not really upset about it, because I hate sharing her anyway, but if the roles were reversed, I would be heartbroken if my dad didn't come visit me every chance he got. There have also been instances, when he would come get her, and his "stepdaughter" would say "We just got back from Mr. Gatti's" Like, what the fuck, this child is 2 years old, she loves going to Gatti's you knew you were coming to get her why the fuck couldn't you wait to go eat and take her with you. I'm so thankful that she doesn't understand things just yet, but she's getting so much smarter and he wont be able to get away with it for very long. It literally sickens me. I know for a fact that if I only got a couple days a week with my child that I would definitely be there to get her the minute I was allowed and wouldn't bring her back till I absolutely had to. It's also been his girlfriend coming to get her a couple times and dropping her off a couple times as well (by herself, mind you) I always, ALWAYS make sure that I'm there to greet my daughter when he brings her back, and I'm also always there to tell her goodbye whenever he comes to get her. I just really don't know what to do about it, and I don't have anyone to talk to about it because my parents think I'm an idiot for getting mad about it, and my sister and her husband think that he hung the moon or something... My friends are usually to busy to care, and my boyfriend listens, and he understands because he's the son of a divorced couple, but I just need more people to vent to every now and then.. :/ Ah well. Gotta go to bed now, that I've had the opportunity to get this off my chest... So, for now..
Xoxo,
Amber Nicole